I'm just sayin'
I cannot afford (in so many ways) the cost of this monthly medication, nor can I abide any longer with something produced by a big name pharmaceutical changing the way I think and feel.
Under my (practicing medicine) Doctor, I did semi-gradually reduce the doseage, but still when it came to quiting time it became unbearable, thoughts of regrets were so intense, self doubt was right up there, suicide sounded like a good idea..
Wanting to quit though has, thank Spirit, been what is keeping me strong. I'm determined to do this.
Some of my withdrawal symtoms?;
Brain jolts constantly, depression (of course, but it gets better folks so hang in there if you are trying to kick this drug) and feeling like I've just come out of surgery..if any of you have had surgery then you might be able to relate. I felt like I had just woken up, but the pain is so bad that you don't want to move?! My whole thought pattern feels like this, like I feel jumpy, irritable, and sad, just goddam sad...but it is getting better, way better. I've been off of the drug now for 7+ daze (sic) and am proud of myself for doing it, but scared as hell thinking what this drug is doing to the million people that are on this or any other anti depressent.
My awesome dad is 92, and has always been quite the intellectual and an avid reader. He has cared and loved two wives and an adopted son who have passed on. He has never needed an anti-depressent! And if he doesn't why in the hell do we?! Honestly....................
One of the other withdrawal symptoms I'm experiencing is an extremely bitter taste happening in the back of my mouth about where my tonsils would be, and unfortunately tainting everything I eat or drink. I do live in the Pacific Northwest though and hope to gawd it isn't from the Fucashima (sp?) nuclear reactor...
So, is there anyone else out there? feeling the same way and trying to kick? let me know, I'd appreciate it.
